I HAVE MAGICAL POWERZZZZ WATCH ME COMPLETE FOUR DEADLINES IN JUST TWO DAYS!!!111
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T_T - Music:Love the World - Perfume
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What do you do when you are stressed?
Whine a lot![]()
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Work even harder![]()
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13 (36.1%)
Hide from people, even friends or family![]()
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15 (41.7%)
Watch all your favourite shows![]()
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16 (44.4%)
Go on an eating binge![]()
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15 (41.7%)
Read porn![]()
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20 (55.6%)
Sleep it all away and wish that it'll all be gone when you wake up![]()
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15 (41.7%)
Cry![]()
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11 (30.6%)
Plot the harsh demise of the people who has done this to you![]()
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10 (27.8%)
Smoke / get drunk![]()
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9 (25.0%)
Laugh maniacally and scare all your loved ones![]()
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10 (27.8%)
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7 (19.4%)
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Now I know what people meant when they said that your third year of college is the most stressful of them all. Granted, I know I've done this to myself. Yesterday I had the most epic migraine after days of not having enough sleep -- my whole head was throbbing, I wanted to vomit and my eyesight was getting blurry. I don't even have migraines, I used to think they were just for rich, spoiled people. The reason why I don't have any sleep is not just because I'm slaving away with work. Part of it is because I have developed a case of insomnia.
I'm the most paranoid person you'll ever meet. When an impending deadline or event looms my head can't stop thinking about it at all. It stalks me while I'm taking a bath, hanging out with friends, or watching TV. It makes me feel so guilty, like I'm not allowed to loosen up at all.
My friend said that I'll probably miss this feeling when I graduate from college. I have a suspicion that she is right. I thrive on being busy, and if it fucks me up then who cares? She confessed though that lately I've been cranky and easily upset this week. So now I've decided to just focus on my damn work and try to avoid people as much as I can, so that I wouldn't say things I don't really mean and hurt them. That just aggravates the situation even further.
My advice when you're stressed? Take a moment to relieve yourself, do whatever means possible. Cry if you want to, nobody would see you anyway. Write an LJ entry. Sketch something. Whatever.
Then get back to work.
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cynical - Music:Outside - George Michael
My f-list has been blogging about how bored they are but I'm sitting at home, studying Japanese in advance to prepare for my Nihongo classes. (>_<)/ It's my goal to at least memorize forty more kanji before the next semester starts. That is, if my brain doesn't combust. Good thing there's the Christmas break to catch up on even more kanji.
...I've been looking at my old notes and cringing at how awful my writing in hiragana is. Orz.
2. Besides academic and org matters, in my spare time I watch Obama videos and lulz around with Obama in Facebook. I wish that there were more people who want change and are willing to act on it with such passion here in my own country. Haha, politics. Everything is political, even if we try to ignore these things because we're sick of it. Apathy is also a political choice.
And it's everywhere. Even in the smallest and most informal of organizations.
3. Hey f-list, what are your dreams, but you're still kinda afraid to do them? I really want to go club-hopping and get drunk somewhere, but part of me is still a prude, after all. Which is too bad because I want to meet people and possibly get a date, somehow. I just get easily intimidated, which is a hoot because most people think I'm very confident. Oh, well.
My dream of cosplaying also applies. HAHA I HAVE COSPLAY ISSUES.
4. MEME TIME! The same old meme again, because I want to practice my creative writing skills (if there even any, orz). Please give me any word/sentence/prompt/scenario, and I'll write a drabble about it. It could be romantic, smutty, or just plain weird. I'll probably make it gay, but anything's cool. Original material only, please! :)
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ditzy - Music:Sweet Soul Revue - Pizzicato Five
PLEASE, PLEASE HELP ME ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS. I need all the help I can get, this is for my final report. ;_; I will be very grateful.
PLEASE ANSWER THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS IF YOU OWN A STATEMENT SHIRT. It could be any shirt at all, could be a gay pride shirt, a shirt that says "I am the cutest!" or a shirt showing school pride. ANYTHING AT ALL. Answers could be in English or Filipino or a mix of both, whatever floats your boat!
1. What is written in your statement shirt/s? Give one example.
2. Where did you buy it?
3. What do you feel when you wear that shirt?
4. Is that a representation of your self or your identity? How do you show it?
5. What do you think do other people think when they see you wearing that shirt?
SURVEY NOW CLOSED! :3 THANK YOU SO MUCH. to all those who answered! ;_; I LOVE YOU FOREVER!
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drained - Music:Hold me Tight - The Beatles
1. Leave me a comment saying you want to do the meme.
2. I'll respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better.
3. You should update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You should include this explanation and offer to ask someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be asked, you will ask them five questions.
1. Who/what is your greatest influence in writing?
Ooh, this is difficult. In a fandom sense, the
2. Is there anything in particular that's been making you happy now? Anything that has you looking forward?
Right now, my acads make me happy. Sad, I know. *laughs* I'm stressed (like any other college student), but working on my finals with my friends is such a pleasant experience. It's great to work and brainstorm on a project with a group of people who are all creative, dedicated, and highly innovative thinkers. I like talking about geeky art things with my friends. You have fun, AND you use your brain, too. =))
3. What is it about organizations that make you want to spend so much time and effort on them?
I believe that one should not limit her education inside the classroom. The real world composes of networking and coordinating with people you are not familiar with; and the greatest challenge is that you must be able to work with these people and gain stellar results. My organizations are a simulation for the workplace, in that sense.
Also, I want to prove the relevance of my hobbies and interests to the general public. With my love for anime and art, I get to utilize my ideas and skills through these orgs, and at the same time pose challenges concerning these concepts. And what's even better, I get to do all these with my friends. :)
4. Y: The Last Man scenario, except in reverse - What would you do if you were the last woman in the universe?
Dear god, a world filled with testosterone? I'd probably kill myself.
Haha, I don't really know. I would feel really horrible (and that's an understatement) because all of a sudden you're the only FACTOR for the survival of the human race, and everyone else seems like a penis ready to penetrate you. The rest of the world will only look at you as a uterus, a baby machine. That's just fucked up. It's not right. While I don't think I have the courage to do anything drastic, given the circumstances, I might just hurl myself off a cliff. Or donate my egg cells to a facility. Something like that. Then I'll go mourn over the death of Cate Blanchett...
5. Why UP?
I want to be free. And this is not in the shallow sense, either; to be specific, I want to free my mind, my soul. And in UP, this is the closest to ultimate freedom I've ever had. UP is one of the best things that ever happened to me. It's way up there in the list, definitely.
- Location:world of tralalala
- Music:Red Eyes and Tears - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
UP AME PUBCOM SHIZ:
1. Draw Properties Committee Sigsheet portion (Breath of Fire 4). I've finished the background, Ronnie, and ate Krischell. I have yet to draw Diego and Jonat's abs, as well as P-chan's nipples. YOU DON'T KNOW HOW EXCITED I AM TO DRAW BURLY MEN. *u*)/
2. Also in charge of two miscellaneous pages, already done. METAL GEAR SOLID THEME, yo. Drew the flyers for the sign-up booth, while
Oh, join
UP ASTERISK ACADS COMM SHIZ:
1. In charge of the Freelikula (free filmshowing project). I was thinking sci-fi, and then realised I don't have an audience. Sadness. Now I'm thinking about musicals instead, Singing in the Rain, or maybe Across the Universe.
2. We're going to perform during the Art Studies department program. I'm thinking of a gay musical. Any takers? (Orgmates: No!)
SCHOOLWORK
1. Hayz Biology. Why did I volunteer to report on GMOs again? I ACTUALLY VOLUNTEERED TO DO EXTRA WORK, HAHA.
2. My majors = death, destruction, bloodshed, tears of agony, etc.
I'm beginning to feel the rough caresses of stress. I'm just glad I'm quite optimistic these days, or else I would've eaten someone alive already. It feels great to be studying and geeking out but at the same time my whole body is complaining.
I have this really bad habit of volunteering for more work. I accomplish them of course (I simply cannot leave anything unfinished), but it gives me so much emotional and physical pain and makes me retarded. I have a competitive streak a mile wide. Blame it on my obsession with treating everything as a game...
I'm also preparing my official documents for ________________. I'm really nervous. I've never wanted anything so badly. This is my chance to discover new things, to be more independent, to grow and learn on my own. This is my chance to feel like loving myself again.
Oh, and so much love for everyone who participated in my previous entry! I was really surprised because the moment I posted it quite a number of people told me all about their dreams in great detail. It was lots of fun reading and replying to them all.
I really hope that whatever your dream is today, even if isn't the idealistic one from your childhood, you will be able to live it. :3 Please don't stop dreaming, f-list! I know I'll have my hot Swiss girlfriend someday (f-list: wat)
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busy - Music:sounds of infants screaming
I feel so nervous. I'm twitchy.
And when I'm nervous my mind is empty. Blank. And when my mind is empty, I become even more nervous. And shit happens.
I want to have fun but I feel like a thousand tsunamis are hitting my chest *m*
Ugh, why do I keep stressing myself! There's nothing to be stressed about but something inside tells me NO NO YOU IMBECILE WORK HARDER, YOU HAVE TO BE PERFECT
The voice is a really ugly voice, too. :( I know I'm being stupid, but how do I get rid of it?
LIKE, PORN DOESN'T HELP BECAUSE WHEN I READ IT I FEEL GUILTY, WHAT THE FUCK--
SEND ME HAPPY THINGS PLEASE
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pessimistic
"Summertime" is over.
No beaches for me.
I don't need to buy a new bikini.
It's now time to study, study, study
Japanese. *o*)/
All for the sake of going to the "land of weaabooos".
I have to put aside all the things I've learned from my Russian and French classes to make space for Japanese.
I feel so inadequate!
...I also think multilingual people are the smartest people in the world.
Errr, now back to studying. Good thing my brother is here to help me.
Pray for my sanity.
(I asked my mom to buy 321056156 books I won't even get to read. ;_;)
Erm. Any advice? Should I listen to those Japanese language tapes over and over again until I hear them in my dreams?
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How are you?
FUCK THIS SEM I WANT TO GO HOME![]()
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12 (41.4%)
FUCK SCHOOL I WANT TO GO TO HOME![]()
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Fuck home I want to go to school (???)![]()
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6 (20.7%)
PAIN![]()
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5 (17.2%)
AGONY![]()
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2 (6.9%)
FUCK YOU ALL![]()
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3 (10.3%)
Goodbye cruel world, I wasn't nice meeting you![]()
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3 (10.3%)
I'm living my dreams, having fun, my career is successful, I have a loving wife/husband, and we have a wonderful sex life. Yay!![]()
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4 (13.8%)
The question is: How are YOU?![]()
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17 (58.6%)
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6 (20.7%)
- Mood:
irate - Music:listening to the sounds of screaming in my ears *slashes wrist*
...was a big joke. Haha!
Short-Term Goals for 2008
* This coming January, I shall head to
* Current weight: 85 pounds. Desired weight: 100 pounds. Remind me to feed myself, dearest friends! I've learned that starving myself to death last year was very stupid, and I am currently compensating by munching on something everywhere I go.
* Finish watching Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex 2nd Gig, the special Kino's Journey episode (I love
* ORGANIZE MY PORN. Yes. I have this bad habit of downloading all the porn I can get my hands on, and I never get to read most of them as a result. I used to sort them by Artist or Author, but now they're a mess. Porn is serious business.
* Influence everyone to join FACEBOOK, which is so not Friendster or Myspace. I can't wait to fling thongs at your direction! :D
* Finish my goddamn homework.
Long-Term Goals for 2008
* Maintain my good grades, or if possible (without losing my social life), make them higher.
* Devote myself to the future of
* I'm currently working on a brand new comic strip series, which will also be posted in
As for "I'm in love with a geek boy", there will be new comic strips once an idea strikes. I won't leave them alone of course, but I can't promise regular posts. I think these two are very happy with their stable relationship -- they've been amusing readers since 2005, can you believe that? Dave and Colin have certainly reached a milestone, and I thank you all for your support.
* WHY HELLO THERE TEAM PARADOX! Get ready for our first meeting this January! Bring pens, paper, and all your creative juices! (Other sorts of juices are applicable, too. Meep.)
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So, I joined Facebook and it asked me for my Relationship Status. I belatedly realized that I had to change my relationship status in my other accounts as well, which I worked on a while ago.
After that I went to my room and laughed and sobbed like a silly girl, and when I marched out Rose, our househelp, gave me a look that said 'you've been crying again, stop it', so I fed myself baked macaroni and cheese. Maybe I learned to love myself a little bit.
Hey, it's a good start.
Happy New Year, guys.
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*u*)/ - Music:Firecrackers and TOROTOTS!
MEN (?!) IN SKIRTS

...is the world ready for them?
Also,
THE OBLIGATORY TO-DO LIST
*u*)/ Geog I - Final Exam (tomorrow!)
*u*)/ French 11 - 2nd Long Test (Oct 5, Fri)
*u*)/ CW 198 - Final Revisions for Short Story (Oct 5, Fri)
*u*)/ French 11 - Departmental Exam (Oct 9, Tues, 7 AM)
*u*)/ Geog I - Portfolio about sacred spaces (Oct 9, Tues)
*u*)/ AS 111 - Final Project (Oct 11, Thurs)
*u*)/ AS 112 - Third Take-Home Exam (Oct 11, Thurs)
*u*)/ AS 112 - Final Synthesis Essay (Oct 11, Thurs)
*u*)/ CWTS - Peasant Situationer (God Knows When)
...I made this list so that every time I check LJ I'll be reminded that I SHOULDN'T BE CHECKING LJ. AT ALL.
P.S. I LOVE YOU,
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groggy
Mondays and Thursdays
8:30-10 AM --> Geography 1 (Appreciation lolz)
10-11 AM --> [PE] Social Dance (I expect we'll be doing Swing and Boogie and all those old dances with our respective partners)
11:30-1 PM --> [Major] Art Studies 111 (I think this is about Western Art.)
Tuesdays and Fridays
10-11:30 AM --> Creative Writing Workshop: Erotic Writing (I already took Gender and Sexuality classes last sem. Apparently I will always take courses with SEX in them.)
11:30-1 PM --> [Major] Art Studies 112: Pacific, East, and Southeast Asian Art
1-2:30 PM --> French 11
Saturdays
9-12 --> [CWTS] Community Work with TUDLA (Create documentaries, exposure trips, etc.)
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Basically I opted not to enlist a class on Wednesdays, so that I can work on
Meanwhile, I am so inspired because ALL my professors so far are all talented, beautiful/cute, smart women!! *shiny eyed* I want to study hard because I smile when I see them in class.
However, they all gave me tons of homework. On the first day. *sigh* Must work for these pretty people...anything it takes to impress them and see them everyday. xD
I must keep my grades up. I already had 1's for my summer classes (Traditional Art class and Philippine Lit class), and now I bet my mom's expecting that I just improve and improve. T_T
[Thanks
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geeky
Still a College Scholar, but my average is higher. Yay! Damn, I must maintain high grades. Finally enlisted for two subjects: Traditional Art (major subject) and some random Filipino Panitikan thing that's bound to break my brain. I bet I'll be too busy to have a life this summer because of my classes.
My friends and I talked earlier about sigsheet plans and there were many exciting suggestions: A pirates theme, fantasy, movies, games, OLD games (like Mario and GALAGA and Bomberman and TETRIS), hentai censorship, sentai. I suggested ANIMAL KINGDOM. Furries!
But I also suggested a MISS / MISTER UNIVERSE THEME. We could wear their National costumes! ...Or if you're not into research, we could like, proceed to the swimsuit competition. Obscure and neat-sounding countries are great picks, and will help broaden the minds of our beloved applicants. For example (these are actually real countries):
Delurianne - Miss Philippines!!
OR I COULD GO TO HELL WHEN I DIE HAHAHA

My fingernails are hot pink, which means I'm gay. My toenails are sparkly blue and I don't know why...
Delurianne bought me a VIBRATING STUFFED DOG FROM HONG KONG! And we whored ourselves in pictures, thanks to Kuya Lowe.
( THEY PIERCE THROUGH YOUR SOUL | MORE VANITY PICS UNDER THE CUT )
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accomplished
2. A Peek Into My Busy Life Part One: My Russian class was highly interesting, because a professor and a student from the Moscow State University arrived in our country to have a discussion with us. The professor (I totally forgot her name, although I do remember that the
(I know, I know, I suck in Filipino as well. I am resisting the urge to smash my head on the keyboard, as gruesome bits might stain the equipment.)
3. A Peek Into My Busy Life Part Two: I volunteered to be the script writer AND director for our children's play in English class. We will perform in front of the kids from Boy's Town, an orphanage for battered and/or abandoned children. It's going to be a musical, so I'm composing all these strange songs in my head that resemble Barney in some way. Meep.
4. A Peek Into My Busy Life Part Three: I volunteered (again) to be the Head of the Publicity Committee for our major exhibit in Art Studies class. To add more pressure to my already exhausted brain, our professor invited the Chancellor of UP Diliman to come to the opening. I already asked
One may wonder why I burden myself with these things. They are actually fun. I find enjoyment in making myself busy with activities that I love doing. I absolutely can't wait for the exhibit opening and the children's play. I hope this semester ends wonderfully (even if I suck at Russian, damn it).
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drained
GEOGRAPHY - 3.0 (Okay, that REALLY bothered me. Why do I have a 3? I DO NOT KNOW. MAYBE GOD CAN TELL ME BECAUSE NO, I DID NOT EXPECT THIS.)
ECONOMICS - 2.5
PHIL. LITERATURE - 1.0
RESEARCH - 2.0 (Now this I DO NOT DESERVE. Goddamnit. I had perfect scores in my assignments and quizzes. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? I expected to get a one-something. Fuck.)
NEWSWRITING - 1.0
PHILOSOPHY - 2.25
SOCIOLOGY - 1.5
THEOLOGY - 1.25
Last year, I was cool with my grades. My grades are still quite high this semester, but they're more What-the-Fuck-ish. I was flabbergasted. I did not expect this. I blame it on having two terror profs (I realized that professors make a huge impact on your overall performance), three lazy professors who, because of their shitty ways of teaching, made me lose interest in their subject, and finally myself for being all emo and shit during the Final exams.
And yes, I am very grade-conscious. VERY. *restless*
2. Epilogue of Pallidula Rigida Nudula in
3. Then: Goodbye Happy Happy World
Not on hiatus, no. I just won't be posting much, because if I do then I'll be ranting about academics and Journalism terms and nobody would give a damn about what I'm saying. On the other hand, I tend to write obsessively when I'm depressed, and depression is imminent due to tough times. I also like to blog about the new things I've experienced and seen, and of course my realizations. Therefore, I'll still be updating like the good Mushroom that I am, but there's a catch.
I might not be able to comment on your entries anymore. I may check my f-list occasionally, but I will choose only what to comment on. (Unlike before, when I tried really hard to focus on your life and try to understand who you really are through your entries.) If your recent journal post comes like this ONLY: "I went shopping today", I'll probably read it but leave it as it is. I most especially ignore posts concerning something I absolutely have no inkling of (Like a random very short note stating "THE WORLD SUCKS" and such. I prefer specifics: please tell us why you hate the world, as we all do, and I may give you a few suggestions on how to stop urges of suicide.)
And because of that, I don't expect you to be dropping by as well. And I don't blame you; owning blogs while friending others is supposed to be a mutual relationship; as you give, you must definitely receive. And I have nothing to give you.
I may post more in
There's a reason for this, actually. I wish to have a "ruler mark" for my grades. Meaning, I am aiming for "Ones", nothing beyond Two. However, this is next to impossible. The most ruthless of Economics teachers is assigned to us, and she told us herself that the highest grade she has given during her teaching years was a 1.75, and that was because the guy was an ass-kicking genius.
Plus, we already have a Newswriting subject, which requires constant updates about current events and issues. In my Research Writing course we were already given an assignment to look for five references for research in just the FIRST MEETING. Theology requires "Church immersion", meaning that we have to involve ourself in Church activities for four Sundays, plus we have to try out other religions outside of Catholicism. In Sociology we have volunteer work in city jails before Christmas break. Our Philosophy is LOGIC. T_T We were already asked to do research for Geography. But my nightmares are centered on my Economics professor. Recitation has an abnormal large percent for your overall grade. If you give a wrong answer, it's an ultimate zero for you.
...And I've heard that UST has "high school" education. Wow. Makes me want to throw my thick book of Plato's "The Republic" at their faces.
Basically: No-nothing post, no comment.
I really need to focus. Come to think of it, I haven't even LOOKED at my communities thoroughly for weeks already.
DON'T WORRY GUYS! If you're worrying about the Christmas presents I promised to make for you, they'll still be done. But please don't get mad at me if they're sent to you rather late.
And these are the equivalents, if you're interested:
ENGLISH 101 = 1.5 = 92-93%
MATHEMATICS = 2.25 = 84-86%(This is so sad. I had a 1.75 in my prelims. I think I messed up during the Final period, because I was absent for a week)
WORLD LITERATURE = 1.25 = 94-95%
POLITICAL SCIENCE = 1.5 = 92-93%(because I love my cute professor! I do! I do!)
PHILOSOPHY = 1 = 96-100%
WORLD HISTORY = 2.5 = 82-83% (My lowest grade yet, but I'm not complaining. Several of my classmates failed; most only received a passing mark. I should be thankful.)
JOURNALISM = 2.25 = 84-86% (again, I messed up in my finals [OMGWTFBBQ RIGHT MINUS WRONG IDENTIFICATION FINALS EXAMS!])
THEOLOGY = 2 = 87-88%
TRACK AND FIELD = 1.75 = 89-91%
GENERAL WEIGHTED AVERAGE = 1.7 (higher than 2, yay!
And because I'm excited...
A SNEAK PEEK OF MY COMIC!
It's just the draft though, no toning and text yet. Anyway...
"I am in love with a geek boy" and "GimmeGhei Inc." Presents...
First Chapter: "I AM IN LOVE WITH AN ORDINARY BOY"
Starring: Dave Austin, Colin Gulliver, Randomwalkingfangirlwoot!
Story and Art by:
Toning and Coloring by:
Encoding and Coloring by:
Dedicated to:
and the Second Chapter: "MY CRAZY LOVED ONES", featuring the adventures of Mrs. Austin and Colin!
I'm excited, really. But the first chapter might come out next week, and the second in the next. I'm going out of town on the 30th of October, and will be gone for a few days, so when I come back it'll probably be uploaded by then.
Please support
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woot!